Think before you act

On Wednesday the 13th of July i made the biggest mistake of my life. I left my loving Fiance because of someone i am no longer friends with and plan on NEVER SPEAKING TO AGAIN. i love this man so much. but i hurt him. i broke his loving heart. and i feel like a fucking idiot for it. i love you michael steven casteel jr. for the rest of our lives. and i will love you until the day i die. i swear to you. please please forgive me. you are the love of my life and the father of my child. till the day that i die you have my heart. i swear to you. and i will never ever give up on us. i know you love me back. i love you with all of my heart and soul. i will never stop fighting for you. ever. you have all of me forever. please please realize i never wanted to leave you. i want to be with you for the rest of our lives. please. put our family back together. i love you. and as i am typing this i am crying my eyes out. because i know i fucked it all up. i don't know what more i can say. other than i am so in love with you. forever. my heart beats a million times a minute just thinking about you. i need you. who else is going to make sure i don't scratch when i have an allergic reaction. who is gonna hold my hair back when i puke. who else is gonna make fun of me when i trip over my own feet. please. with all of my heart i am begging you. be mine again. i love and miss you so much. i am so so so sorry. please put our family back together. i swear your all i want. is our family please baby. your everything to me.