"friends"?

there comes a time when a person you have been very good friends with starts hanging out with the very person you want to get ran over by a bus or train...and they act like them. and then they decide your just not good enough to be their friend anymore because you don't like the one they hang out with...so they ditch you. all the time. make plans and break them...or just be like oh i'm with my best friend...yea that stupid crap. what's real fun is when they want to get mad at you for not making plans with them anymore after you have given up. yea i have a former friend like that. i thought we would be best friends forever. but it turns out that the other person was to manipulative. and my friend was naive enough to fall for her lies. i just hope she doesn't get hurt in the process. the girl, whom we will call Jane for this post, told my friend, who we will call Shana, that since i was no longer going to deal with Jane's drama, that we should just not be friends. so in fear of losing that friend...decided that it was time to sever the friendship. but when i took her off my list of friends on Facebook. lost it and started yelling at me about being immature...so, since i didn't want her to see i was hurting because of what she did...deleted her off of my friends list..that is immature...someone please teach her the meaning of immature...she obviously does NOT have a clue. So Jane used this to her advantage. She told Shana that i must not care and to sever all ties with me so i don't hurt her anymore. since then Shana has told me twice that she is done with Jane. Both of which has turned out to be lies. before we would get the chance to hang out she would be back to kissing Jane's feet. Which sucks, but she does know where to find me in the event her brain grows back. because it must have run away screaming when she made the conscience decision to be friends with Jane. I know mine would have. But things have gotten better since then. i have the most amazing group of friends lately and i have no clue what i would do without them. and since i think the world should know i won't change their names. Rexy, Shawn, Meggs, Katie..and sometimes Fish. i love you guys so so much! thank you for all you have done for me and if you ever need me you know where to find me day or night!!! Love you!!! <3

awww Christmas time

This holiday can either go really good. or really bad in my case...so many people to get presents for and i'm, as usual, flat broke! yea and i'm not even started on shopping...and i don't get paid till 2 days prior...the phrase "Procrastinator's unite...tomorrow..." fits me oh so well....so me and the rest of the city of idaho falls will be at wal*mart till 3 am trying to get everyones gift on the 22nd...not. good. and i am not looking forward to it. i know what to get Michael...and katie..i think. but what about Rexy? the rest of my massive family? my mom, my cousins, everyone. yea. and of coarse they have gifts for me. and i am making my mom a stocking cuz i live with greedy bastards and they don't do shit for her even though she puts sweat blood and tears into doing all she can for us...yea. they are assholes...but they are men and it seems to come with the male species...not all are like this but alot of them. Michael is definetly an exception....but yea not looking forward to shopping...and this winter bullshit...CAN GO STRAIGHT TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!! >:-(

i miss you...

july 31, 2002 -- january 23, 2008
two dates that will never leave my mind...i miss my grandparents so very much...i wish they could have seen me graduate...seen my baby sister...i wish that my grandpa could have seen my mom leave her ex-husband...and how happy she is with my step dad...i know there in a better place...but i want to hug them...tell them i love them...everyone asks me why i do some of the things i do? like how i refuse to go fishing...that was my grandpas thing to do with me...every visit...so i won't anymore...my grandma....was the best...i love her so very much...i wish i could talk to her...get her help on my current situation...i wish she could meet michael...see how good he is to me...i love him soooo much...he unknowingly helps me out when i miss them...i just want to spend one more day with them both...with my family... i wish...that they were here...i love them...they will always be in my heart...no matter what the future may hold...
in loving memory of Beverly Rae Corey && Dewey Lane Fallis SR <3

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

!!!!*MuSiC*!!!!

i always have my music running...
either that or i have somethin stuck in my head lol
and i usually do sing it!
i know im weird.
im a complete dork when it comes to music....
im a choir dork...
i am teaching myself to play guitar...
i write alot too...
i have wrote a few poems...
maybe in the future i will post some...
i may have already...
hell i can't remember
i am blonde...
its what i do :)
forget stuffz...
some of my favorite bands/artists are:
1: Evanescence
2: My Chemical Romance
3: Avril Lavigne
4: Rihanna
5: Many more that i can't think of right now
yea i love music!! hahaha it is my life:) <3

the L word...

everyone uses it at one point or another. some just throw it around like its nothing. these people piss me off the most. "oh i love you babe and ill NEVER leave you" yea yea so why are you dating my ex-best friend sherlock? does no one keep their promises anymore? obviously not. which is why i have been single for a looooong time. i just don't care to hear another guy lie to me for six months and then leave me. i mean can ya blame me? yes i would love to find a guy who will love me for me and who won't leave me. do i think that will happen any time soon? no. i want it to and if i did end up with someone i am not saying i wouldn't like it if i got asked out but for real. don't lie to me. if your gonna leave me for someone i am friends with then F the freak off! i don't wanna waste my time. does anyone wanna tell me why guys feel the need to do this to girls they "love"? because i just am not understanding this. i don't want to be single but i will be until someone who is NOT a douche bag comes along...yes there are guys i am interested in not ALL are rude. but still i don't understand the whole "let's treat our girlfriends like shit cuz then our friends will think were kewl. no. they won't. half the time they think your a jack ass. it's not KEWL to make a girl cry. it's rude. and we will dump your ass in a heart beat. not kidding...but whatever i guess. guys suck.

alissa!!

i love my little sisters. well i love all my siblings equally! but right now she is the one that came to see me! WOO HOO!! lol she is alot of fun to hang out with. i don't really have to be mature big sister with her around. i can act like a little kid! yay! bahahhahahah!!! she is amazin to talk to and definitely one person i can complain to and she will always take my side even if i know i am being stupid about it! the joys of hangin wit my twelve year old sister! lol i love talking to her and its fun when she comes down to see me!

a poem i wrote:) comment please?

miss you:

I miss the way you called me babe,

i miss hearing your voice late at night,

i miss coming to school and you being my first sight,

i may say i am mad at you,

yet love is all i feel,

some days all i want is to hate you,

i just do not know how to deal,

i miss the days of you and me,

i love you,

come back to me?

please?

you will always have my heart

the problem of perverted guys....

ok so here i am minding my own business talking to Anna and this guy asks me a question on Myyearbook. it says "would you send me nudes if i asked." and me being, well me, i pop off and call him multiple inappropriate names and go on my way. after watching my show i get back on and he says "im shocked you refused with you being such a slutt." so once again i freak out on him. he says "send me the pic and ill tell you who i am." once again i yell at him. ok people is it really that hard to notice my age is 17!! really?!?! i am a minor. anyone asking me for nudes or in possession of said nudes (not that i send em cuz my body is for my eyes only thanks) could get in boatloads of trouble. that is "kiddy porn" and there for a felony...as much as i would like this person to go to jail for a looooooong time. he is not good enough to see a pic of me....thanx but no thanx....im just not like that. seriously though! is it really that amazing to go after a minor. i honesty do not understand this. for real. URGH people piss me off!

awww hearbreak

every one of us has been thru this. the end of a relationship that you were sure would last forever. realizing that you were just a one night stand. or finding out he/she does not feel the same about you. yes everyone has had it happen. all of it ends for one reason or another. feelings changed. they want someone easy. so many reasons so many times it happens. you finally see your life in a good position. you think nothing will ever go wrong. and that you will be this happy forever. you have no idea how wrong that is. love just does not last anymore. its not enough to keep a relationship going. you are with him/her one day, then the next *BAM* you hear the dreaded words "we need to talk" and you spend the next few weeks feeling like your heart had been ripped out of your chest. you cry and cry and but you cant do anything at all about it. things just ended. you think about your ex and hope they will come back. but they do not. and then a couple months later you find someone else. you get happy and you realize that all the pain in the world is worth it when you can have that happiness for as long as it lasts. you realize that you would willingly deal with it just to be that happy again. and you hope that one day it will last. and maybe it will. maybe it will not. but at least you are happy. and you keep looking for the one that will stay with you forever. and this is all i say. good luck. you may need it. ladies i am mainly speaking to you with this. guys do not really look for anything serious. do not forget they do not think with their brains. they use something slightly lower. and guys, we do want someone that wants a serious relationship. we want love. so do us all a favor. keep it in your pants until we decide we are ready. and once that happens. do not ditch us. we have friends. we do gossip. if you get in our pants and ditch us by about eight A.M. the next day anyone with a cell phone WILL know what happened and how you treated us. we watch out for our ladies.

lil miss danni

i miss my sister tons today. i have not seen her in a long time...it feels like years....but i know its not. she is the best. she comes up with words like wabacha:) inside thing haha. she is currently 11 years old. she lives in Algona, Iowa with her mother angie. who took danni lynn from our dad at eleven thirty one night. even though she wanted to live with dad. there is a custody battle going on right now. and i am hoping dad wins. i have to stay strong for my sisters. one of them, Alissa, has texted me a couple times worrying that we won't get her back. and i have to hold back my own fears and assure her we will. and that no judge would break a girls heart like that. sometimes it gets so hard though. i just miss her Sooooooooo much. i want her to come home. to be able to share a room with her again and just goof off with her. she is one of the best sisters ever! (all of them are the best lol) i love them all. and i hope that danni comes home soon. i cant wait to see her again. when you get here sweety my room is open to you! even if we are cramped! i love you tons sweety and i cant wait until you come home! we all miss you!

This is my younger sister Marryssa. She is soo much fun to hang out with and i tell her EVERYTHING. whenever i am upset i know i can talk to her and she has the best advice. even just hanging out with her can cheer me up. she is on of the best sisters a girl could ask for!!
This is Katie. she is amazing! she is one of my besties! i love to hang out with her. 
This is Jenna. She is 9 months old. She is such a dork and she could make even the most depressed person smile like they just won the lottery.
Me. Bored out of my mind after getting off work one day hahaha cant remember exactly where i was at but i know i had just got off work.


PICTURES OF ME, MY FRIENDS, AND MY FAMILYYYY

To the left is Rexy. She is another one of my besties and she is like a big sister to me. I love hanging out with her. 

To the right is Darian. My Two year old brother. He is so cute. But other times he can be a hellian.                                                    

the short version of the last year or so

The last year or so has had its ups and downs, its good times and times where i have just wanted to give up and cry. Such as the day my grandma died. Other times im not sure if i was happy or sad. I am an early graduate. Although i walk with my class on June 3rd, 2010. (the date may be a bit off but its roughly around there). I moved out of my mom's house and into my dads. I live with my dad, Todd, my step-mom, Anna, my three year old sister, Rayanna, and my two year old brother, Darian. Two of my younger sisters come to visit alot, Marryssa who is 14, and Alissa who is 12. I love hanging out with them. I miss my other sister Danni Lynn so so sooo much! she is currently living with her mom in Algona, Iowa. I have twelve brothers and sisters total. Here is the list of all of us and our ages:

• Hillary Fallis 17 (that is me)
• Marryssa Chan 14
• Logan Burch 13
• Cody Burch 13 (these last two are twins)
• Alissa Mutschler 12
• Danni Klimple 11
• Cameron Goldman 10
• Michael Garrett 7
• Rayanna George 3
• Darian George 2
• Berkley Burch 1
• Jenna Goldman 9 months
• the name of the last one has yet to be decided. he is still in my Step-mom's stomach. He is due May 17th
  

As you can see many of us do not share the same last names. Some are from my dad's side of the family and the rest are from mom's. i love them all so much.

My family is like my life but i honestly would be lost without my friends. Like Rexy, Kim, Katie, Jon (psycho) and many many others. i love them all to pieces. They have helped me out so much in the past two years.