Another holiday season...

Here it is again. The holiday season and once again i am without my grandma...i miss her so much it makes my heart ache because i ALWAYS saw her on christmas day. No matter what was going on. pretty soon that day will be here again and i can't hug her...or tell her i love her...or get her to get my dad to come see me again. this is year number three and it hurts so much. i miss her with all my heart...i miss my dad...i hate that he lives so far away because right now i really need him...i can't do this without you...i don't care what it takes find a way to get down here...soon...i don't like spending the holidays without you. it's bad enough that she is gone...come back to Idaho Falls dad...come home...My mom helps me so much when it comes to missing my family and especially when i miss my grandpa dewey since that is her dad. but when it comes to grandma mutschler, dad your kinda the expert because your the only kid of hers that actually cared for her...i love my family so much. and especially my new family. I am lucky to have so many people around me during the holidays. Michael especially. My husband is my world and my daughter as well. And i am so lucky to have michaels family in my life as well. they are such nice people and i love to be around them all. especially around the holidays because that is what the holidays are about. Family. yea the food is good and the presents do not hurt either. but what matters the most is being able to be around your family. which i do every day. :) i love you all so much! my dads family (the imediate part) my moms family and my in laws :) you guys are all so good to me and i am so lucky to have you all in my life.

My crazy amazing life

So much has changed since I last updated my blog. Here is a summary of everything. I moved back in with my now HUSBAND. Yes I got married and I could not be any happier than I am with him. Michael is my world and in less than four weeks my daughter will be born and my little family will be together completely. Just in time for Christmas time. I can't wait to see her beautiful face and to be able to kiss her little cheeks and to hold her hands. I am even excited to change her poopy diapers just so I have her in my arms. Michael wants her to be here just as much as I do if not more. We both can't wait for her arrival. I love that she can't kick my bladder anymore when she is out :) and I will not have to worry about coughing and sneezing as I do right now. Zerelda will be the most spoiled baby girl on the planet!! I love my crazy life and I love everyone in it. I love Michael's family so much as well because they are so amazing to me. I honestly do not know what I would do without them sometimes. They are the nicest people I have ever met :)