i miss you...

july 31, 2002 -- january 23, 2008
two dates that will never leave my mind...i miss my grandparents so very much...i wish they could have seen me graduate...seen my baby sister...i wish that my grandpa could have seen my mom leave her ex-husband...and how happy she is with my step dad...i know there in a better place...but i want to hug them...tell them i love them...everyone asks me why i do some of the things i do? like how i refuse to go fishing...that was my grandpas thing to do with me...every visit...so i won't anymore...my grandma....was the best...i love her so very much...i wish i could talk to her...get her help on my current situation...i wish she could meet michael...see how good he is to me...i love him soooo much...he unknowingly helps me out when i miss them...i just want to spend one more day with them both...with my family... i wish...that they were here...i love them...they will always be in my heart...no matter what the future may hold...
in loving memory of Beverly Rae Corey && Dewey Lane Fallis SR <3

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

!!!!*MuSiC*!!!!

i always have my music running...
either that or i have somethin stuck in my head lol
and i usually do sing it!
i know im weird.
im a complete dork when it comes to music....
im a choir dork...
i am teaching myself to play guitar...
i write alot too...
i have wrote a few poems...
maybe in the future i will post some...
i may have already...
hell i can't remember
i am blonde...
its what i do :)
forget stuffz...
some of my favorite bands/artists are:
1: Evanescence
2: My Chemical Romance
3: Avril Lavigne
4: Rihanna
5: Many more that i can't think of right now
yea i love music!! hahaha it is my life:) <3

the L word...

everyone uses it at one point or another. some just throw it around like its nothing. these people piss me off the most. "oh i love you babe and ill NEVER leave you" yea yea so why are you dating my ex-best friend sherlock? does no one keep their promises anymore? obviously not. which is why i have been single for a looooong time. i just don't care to hear another guy lie to me for six months and then leave me. i mean can ya blame me? yes i would love to find a guy who will love me for me and who won't leave me. do i think that will happen any time soon? no. i want it to and if i did end up with someone i am not saying i wouldn't like it if i got asked out but for real. don't lie to me. if your gonna leave me for someone i am friends with then F the freak off! i don't wanna waste my time. does anyone wanna tell me why guys feel the need to do this to girls they "love"? because i just am not understanding this. i don't want to be single but i will be until someone who is NOT a douche bag comes along...yes there are guys i am interested in not ALL are rude. but still i don't understand the whole "let's treat our girlfriends like shit cuz then our friends will think were kewl. no. they won't. half the time they think your a jack ass. it's not KEWL to make a girl cry. it's rude. and we will dump your ass in a heart beat. not kidding...but whatever i guess. guys suck.

alissa!!

i love my little sisters. well i love all my siblings equally! but right now she is the one that came to see me! WOO HOO!! lol she is alot of fun to hang out with. i don't really have to be mature big sister with her around. i can act like a little kid! yay! bahahhahahah!!! she is amazin to talk to and definitely one person i can complain to and she will always take my side even if i know i am being stupid about it! the joys of hangin wit my twelve year old sister! lol i love talking to her and its fun when she comes down to see me!

a poem i wrote:) comment please?

miss you:

I miss the way you called me babe,

i miss hearing your voice late at night,

i miss coming to school and you being my first sight,

i may say i am mad at you,

yet love is all i feel,

some days all i want is to hate you,

i just do not know how to deal,

i miss the days of you and me,

i love you,

come back to me?

please?

you will always have my heart

the problem of perverted guys....

ok so here i am minding my own business talking to Anna and this guy asks me a question on Myyearbook. it says "would you send me nudes if i asked." and me being, well me, i pop off and call him multiple inappropriate names and go on my way. after watching my show i get back on and he says "im shocked you refused with you being such a slutt." so once again i freak out on him. he says "send me the pic and ill tell you who i am." once again i yell at him. ok people is it really that hard to notice my age is 17!! really?!?! i am a minor. anyone asking me for nudes or in possession of said nudes (not that i send em cuz my body is for my eyes only thanks) could get in boatloads of trouble. that is "kiddy porn" and there for a felony...as much as i would like this person to go to jail for a looooooong time. he is not good enough to see a pic of me....thanx but no thanx....im just not like that. seriously though! is it really that amazing to go after a minor. i honesty do not understand this. for real. URGH people piss me off!

awww hearbreak

every one of us has been thru this. the end of a relationship that you were sure would last forever. realizing that you were just a one night stand. or finding out he/she does not feel the same about you. yes everyone has had it happen. all of it ends for one reason or another. feelings changed. they want someone easy. so many reasons so many times it happens. you finally see your life in a good position. you think nothing will ever go wrong. and that you will be this happy forever. you have no idea how wrong that is. love just does not last anymore. its not enough to keep a relationship going. you are with him/her one day, then the next *BAM* you hear the dreaded words "we need to talk" and you spend the next few weeks feeling like your heart had been ripped out of your chest. you cry and cry and but you cant do anything at all about it. things just ended. you think about your ex and hope they will come back. but they do not. and then a couple months later you find someone else. you get happy and you realize that all the pain in the world is worth it when you can have that happiness for as long as it lasts. you realize that you would willingly deal with it just to be that happy again. and you hope that one day it will last. and maybe it will. maybe it will not. but at least you are happy. and you keep looking for the one that will stay with you forever. and this is all i say. good luck. you may need it. ladies i am mainly speaking to you with this. guys do not really look for anything serious. do not forget they do not think with their brains. they use something slightly lower. and guys, we do want someone that wants a serious relationship. we want love. so do us all a favor. keep it in your pants until we decide we are ready. and once that happens. do not ditch us. we have friends. we do gossip. if you get in our pants and ditch us by about eight A.M. the next day anyone with a cell phone WILL know what happened and how you treated us. we watch out for our ladies.